it has been so long since i wrote in this thing, and i have good reason why. Kyle and i broke up, after 2 whole years we are no longer together anymore. to set the record straight, i broke up with him. i believe i had very good reasons why. i will not bore you with the details, but i write now to say farewell to this blog and its over between Kyle and me for good. there were a lot of good times, but way too mny bad times. i have learned a lot abouit myself and who i will from now on look for in a mate. this is it its all done and over with and in a strange way, i feel okay about it now. i asked him if we could get back together again, but it sounded like he didnt wants to so i think this is for the best. if we were truly ment to be together, then we would have gotten along better. i will miss him and do miss him so much and i still love him, but i need to start thinking about my wellbeing and sanity. so, thank you blog for letting me express myself through these years. so long. Rockabillyren

 hey hey.
      well, this school semester is almost over thank the Lord! i only have 1 more month left adn then its time for summer school. oh goodie....
            i think im gonna take it at least, if i force myself. i probably end up with American History since thats required to graduate. todays just another lazy Sunday, waiting for KyKy to come over and studying for yet another test.
           DID-O JOE!

   okay, my spring break wasnt the type of thing you see on MTV as far as parties go, but i did have some fun anyways.
        my old friend Shainna came down to visit me and her family from San Luise Obispo...its like a 7 hour drive! that was fun being able to catch up on old times and some new. told her my plans for my ultra wicked, way in advance Halloween party. she said she's gonna be a witch of some sort.
        next day i worked and put in a few extra hours cause i needed the bank!
        next day i met up with one of my friends from my old work (u know the horrid place) and we got coffee and went to my house for ice cream and hang out. that was pretty nice.
        kyle left me for the whole flippin' week. hes away in San Francisco visiting his sisters while ive been stuck here vertually alone (my parents went to Mexico). yes, u can say im a bit bitter about it, although i do hope he had fun....but not TOO much fun!!!!



      Different and (i think) exciting news:    Johnny Depp (yum) and Tim Burton are coming out with a new movie, The Corpse Bride. it looks awesome. it features Johnny's voice in it (uh, yum) and its a flash claymation, like Nightmare Before Christmas. so cool. its due out sometime this year. check out the movie trailer for it at thecorpsebridemovie.com.  
   oh yeah, and Joe, dont feel too bad about not getting ne HW done during SB, i didnt either! :)

   okay, so those of you that know me very well know that i am a capricorn, so that means i like to plan things...way in advance too. so this week, i started thinking about what dope costume i should wear for the upcoming Halloween and that lead to another brilliant idea of mine.... I should throw a Halloween Bash this year!! YAY! planing early never hurt ne one, that way ill be able to save up enough $ for decorations.
    now how to plan my diobolical bash. first i need invitations. hmmm.
     next i need decorations. im thinking ill have the Adams family playing on my wide screen tv in the background, black and orange streamers and balloons, a wreath, lots of candles, a center piece for the dinning room table, some spider webs and hanging spiders and so forth.
     the most importaint in my book? the music. ill need Oingo Boingo, the Misfits, the Ramones, AFI, Depeshmode, any Halloween cd's, etc.
     i think the best way to do the food would to only do dessert and alcohol. not too expensive. im thinking i could have a halloween decorated cake and everyone chip in for the alcohol. well, im off to dream up some more ideas. chow

alright, so being sick offially sucks now. its already been 4 days, and just when i thought i was going to get better, BAMM! back to feeling like shit agian with the cold. i have a runny nose, and a stuffed up nose, my heads wacked out and my throwt keeps flodding over with nasty sickness. ugg! only my third day at skool 2mo and already looking and feeling bad.
 so i got all my books and art supplies for skool, and so far im enjoying the teachers and the material.

i spent yesterday with my love, and we saw the new Robert Dinero movie "Hide and Seek." it was pretty good, got me jumping in my seat a few times. major twist at the end, good ending.

its so funny about me and my love; KyKy. many times when we talk to older people, or couples, they assume that we're married, or they ask us if we think we will mary each other, as if they already know its probably going to happen, and we're that easy to read. For example, while we were at Disneyland, only 6 months into our relationship, several couples in line with us asked if we were married. In another senario, while talking to my uncle about my boyfriend on the phone, he asked me one time "Do you think you guys will get married eventually?" And then just the other day, KyKy and i ran into my elderly neighbor Delorus and she whispered to me "You two will probably get married, huh?"
Strange, isnt it? i mean KyKy and i talk about it a lot, and it could eventually happen, but how could people we barely know actually sense that?

Quickly, my new job is going great, besides being sick of course. later Rockabillyren

Todays a fine day. a fine day indeed! why? you may ask... because i started my new job today, and although i have a lot to learn about filling books and what not, i think im really going to like it there. its kinda a work at your own pace, people leave u alone kind of job. just what i was hoping for. of course its quiete there, given the surroundings, and peaceful. so far i like most of the employees, except for this one older lady that gives me dirty looks when i talk to her, and stares at my chest, basically looking me up and down to show off that she thinks im pooh pooh. whatever, shes not my boss, so i dont care.

Besides this new job, Kyle and i are going to his friends' band to see them perform on saturday after work. its gonna be Rockabilly and some country. hopefully it will be pretty good.

hope everyones' baring with our latest bad luck with the natural disasters...hang in there.
~Rockabillyren

Miss u 2 Joe! Whats Up?

counting down: only 2 more days untill im 21!!!!!! eegad. and then i party like its 1999! yeah.

sorry u havnt been feeling emotionally up to parr Joe. if u look back a few days on my blog, i was in the same boat just a few days ago. dont worry, be happy. just try not to think about whats bothering you. hey, not trying to pry, but who were you talking about being "dead weight" in your life right now?

get back to me soon. oogie boogie ~Rockabillyren

okay, so i just had a phone convo with KyKy and let me put it this way, it wasnt pretty. i started talking to him about college and how we should be getting out of the JC around the same time. he said that that would be performing a "miracle" and that i should stay focused on me staying on track. so, with this single, short convorsation, my dreams were then shattered, just like that. ive always thought that the 2 of us would move out together and start at a university together. that doesnt seem to be in his plans after all. so maybe i was being nieve about the whole thing, assuming, no, hoping that we would stay together that long, and then move in together, but damn! i do wish so. now im back at square one, my lack of motivation for skool overcoming me once again. KyKy was my only motivation before. there is still a dim light at the end of the tunnel, its just a lot harder to see now.

on another note...KyKy forgot it was our ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY! yeah, you read right (unfortunatley). kudos to KyKy. whats up with guys always forgetting the important shit? man. he said it wasnt a big deal, but in my book, that is a big deal. whatever. whatever. im done. no more bitching tonight.

i am in dire need of getting out of the house and actually having a girls night out.    ONLY 3 MORE DAYS UNTILL YOURS TRUELY TURNS 21. WHAT? WHAT?! :) CHOW.

well, the special day has finally arrived. Today, it is officially one year that KyKy and i have been together. i think for a college student that is very impressive, personally. Unfortunatley, i did not get to see him today, but luckily, hell be getting off work earlier than usual tomo to see me. were meeting at my house and then going to my hair stylist to get him a more chique hair cut. After that, im whisking him off in my white carriage and cooking him dinner, consisting of stuffed raviolli and garlic bread.

i havnt worked at all this week, and im really enjoying my relaxing time off. (well needed too). Next week the fam and i are all packing into the mini van and heading off to Bryan Head, NV for a week in the snow. Personally, im not looking forward to it. Blog to ya later, Rock.

gosh, i miss Big Boy Joe! kinda sucks ive gotten no updates from his blog either.

anyways, things around here havnt changed too much...got my cell phone taken away from me again b/c i didnt call my parents to tell them i was hanging out with some friends after a movie!! oh no! and im legally an adult. what the fuck!? besides that, things are pretty good, at least for the time being. i got to visit megan not too long ago, and spent new years eve with KyKy and his growing family. it was pretty chill, no big parties or anything like that, just played a board game and saw "Meet the Fockers" with Ben Stiller. man, was that a funny movie or what! even better than the first one, by far.

on another subject, this rain thats been non stop...well its really putting me in a mood. its making me feel more lazy and tiered and kinda depressed. i dunno, dont like that at all. theres more to be said, but i dont really want to face that right now, so im not going to write about it either.     Wishing everyone the best to a new year    ~RockabillyRen