okay, so i just had a phone convo with KyKy and let me put it this way, it wasnt pretty. i started talking to him about college and how we should be getting out of the JC around the same time. he said that that would be performing a "miracle" and that i should stay focused on me staying on track. so, with this single, short convorsation, my dreams were then shattered, just like that. ive always thought that the 2 of us would move out together and start at a university together. that doesnt seem to be in his plans after all. so maybe i was being nieve about the whole thing, assuming, no, hoping that we would stay together that long, and then move in together, but damn! i do wish so. now im back at square one, my lack of motivation for skool overcoming me once again. KyKy was my only motivation before. there is still a dim light at the end of the tunnel, its just a lot harder to see now.

on another note...KyKy forgot it was our ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY! yeah, you read right (unfortunatley). kudos to KyKy. whats up with guys always forgetting the important shit? man. he said it wasnt a big deal, but in my book, that is a big deal. whatever. whatever. im done. no more bitching tonight.

i am in dire need of getting out of the house and actually having a girls night out.    ONLY 3 MORE DAYS UNTILL YOURS TRUELY TURNS 21. WHAT? WHAT?! :) CHOW.